I Shouldn't Complain But Here I Go...

I'm kind of worth out. I know we all get tiresome and burdened down from time to time. It's part of our human experience. I have been having migraines for a year and a half. I know that for some migraine sufferers, they are in horrible pain and have to lie in a dark room for hours while trying to keep nausea at bay. My migraines are different. I used to get those life stopping head aches but now they have morphed into something less and more all at the same time. I still get a painful head ache but I am a Mom now and have had to buck it up. No quiet dark rooms for me. I get vertigo and am slightly nauseas. Tingling in my hands and feet sometimes happens. The worst though is how they affect my cognitive abilities and mood. I get irratible. I know when I start to crave chocolate one might be popping up soon. Once the migraine lessens because I am lucky the pain usually goes away about 15-30 minutes after I take my ib profin, my mind stays fuzzy and unable to focus very well. I feel like I have been hit in the head. All the information I need is in my mind but it takes me longer to recall less firmiliar things like an old friend or a random ingredient to a recipe. I cannot function after 10 PM on days I have a migraine. My head is so heavy. Anyway they come every few weeks and I have been dealing with them because I could. I could still get done everything I needed to. Not to sound like I am super tough, I'm not. Yet the last few months they were getting much more painful. So after putting off a visit to my doctor (I have been hoping they would magically disappear) I finally went in. That was two weeks ago and so far not much better. He said that I suffer from rebound head aches which are head aches that occurs because of the original migraine. So that was new information. Since I have a variety of symptoms and the migraines could be caused by a variety of things he put me on a medicine that treats neuropathy, sleeping disorders, and depression. It's a very low dosage meant just to treat the migraines. That was almost two weeks ago and I have had two migraines in that time, plus I think this medicine makes me kind if blue. So I am quitting it and now the next step is the nerologist. If these are never resolved I will be okay, they don't alter my life dramatically. They are more of a very pokey rock that keeps getting stuck in my shoe. But tonight I wish I could just take off the shoe.